Sunday, October 14, 2007

die donut Krise



it has been a strange weekend
i felt in crisis many times
the past 2 days

out of the blue
and in the worst part of the day
when the night starts to crawl
that is when i feel the most lonely and sad

my mother called!
i told her a was a little melancholic
and little sad & blue
i did not tell her specific reasons
why i was sad
she knows i get sad no & then
and that's when i need my friends the most
so she didn't ask why
but she advised me!

she said...

daughter don't worry
you are not alone
you have your mom still
so go to the store and eat a cake
or something sweet to help your heart
feel happy again

i am 38
but i followed my mom's advice

i found a sweet pink donut
a really pink colorful one!
i thought, many colors!
if it has to cheer me up

a donut
is not a friend
and is not love
and cannot give you a hug
but tonight is all i have
a donut, and my mom
so
with a warm tea i will eat it
and try to sleep

and wait for a new week of work
and stuff...
for this life to go on...

again, another night
that i feel a little alone
but with a donut
might be all a little less bitter
and sugary

and sometimes
it is good to listen
the voice of your mom
that way you don't feel so desperate
so alone..

silence

there is a helicopter outside
it flies high

the birds sing
and light blue is again the sky

it is the mid-day
outside full of life

but i am not curious of the helicopter
nor of the birds
and i don’t find comfort
not even in the beautiful sky

no sun can warm up my heart

since you have chosen silence

all seems like a gray rock

Saturday, October 13, 2007

ghosts



some ghosts are elusive
they don't want to play with you
nor listen to your voice

sometimes
summer kisses
become
winter tears

and i just wanted to tell you
that i wanted to follow you
and be with you

until the end of the world
Bis ans Ende der Welt
[click on PLAY for the song]



Summer kisses, Winter tears
That was what he gave to me
Never thought that I'd travel all alone
The trail of memories

Happy hours, lonely years
But I guess I can't complain
For I still recall the Summer sun
Through all the Winter rain

The fire of love, the fire of love
Can burn from afar
And nothing can light the dark of the night
Like a falling star
Summer kisses, Winter tears
Like the stars they fade away
Leaving me to spend my lonely nights
With dreams of yesterday

Leaving me to spend my lonely nights
With dreams of yesterday
Summer kisses, Winter tears

Friday, October 12, 2007

der Schaufelraddampfer

or English
(you were right the 1st time!)
a Paddle wheel steamer
or in Spanish
un Buque de vapor a rueda de paleta...

so what I know about Tom Sawyer
the little details
is not 'cause I have read Mark Twain
i confess myself Twain-ignorant
and what a shame!
but one day, maybe soon
I hope i can read him

anyway, i know a bit about
Tom and Huck and yes Becky
because while in Mexico i used
to watch these lovely japanese cartoons!
the Tom Sawyer adventures

the story-line was taken straight from the book
and the episodes were so funny

again the original version was in Japanese
but i watched dubbed in Spanish
a real treat!

look at the ending of every cartoon
Tom and Huck running free
following der Schaufelraddampfer
heh heh
this is the original japanese
with a lovely (even if not understandable at all)
song



and here the 1st episode of the series
in Spanish!
you might want to see, even without understanding
the words, one can follow the actions
that's what i love about cartoons

here Tom and Becky



and maybe my favorite Episode!
Joe el Indio
oh Joe the indian is so freightening



i hate youtube, but i love youtube too

and NO, i was not a child when i watched these cartoons on TV
i was i think 25 or 26
and up to this day
i still watch cartoons, not just Adult cartoons
like the Simpsons

but i watch children cartoons now & then
i still love Tom & Jerry and the old Spider-Man
and so many others

sure! i can be an pseudo intellectual and
get all fussy about Nietzsche and Schopenhauer
but also, i can easily on a Saturday morning
tunning into Sesame Street
and have a fun session with Kermit the frog
and for sure with mister Elmo
i am a freak but i love this guy!

oh the glory of become old
without many prejudices when it comes to sophistication

long live Tom Sawyer
writers, cartoon makers
and any other artists that fulfill
our little lives with precious moments

Thursday, October 11, 2007

coffee for tea

"None but a coward dares to boast that he has never known fear."
-Ferdinand Foch, French general

I always do the same at the office
when in the midmorning, soporific hours
to my soul, crawling...
i climb the stairs for a cup of black tea
yet
if there's fresh-made coffee
i switch invariably...

but this is the tea collection
zu Hause ;)
so i guess, doesn't really matter

café, tea, whatever to keep my mind
awake and spirited
while these black spots on a white screen
i keep on typing

the intricate systems we humans
have created when it comes to the classification
of the drinking

ah! sabor

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

the day time broke



today my time broke
just like that

i came home after 9, 10, 12? hours
of being away and this home
of home smells no more

checked my arm time
broken!

i have never broken a watch before
is this a signal?

a stop to all calling
a start-all-over note?

a spiritual rewind

time
stop
breaks
broken

signals?
time to buy back my soul

i feel like one of paul auster characters
those that disappear and tell no families
no friends where they go...
where they hide their miseries and their songs...

cutting umbilical, and of any sort, cords
i felt his beating on my arm
still soft and still strong

maybe like my dead watch
today a new time
for a new life
i shall re-call

this time of mine
this time of no life
today
out of the blue,
broke

Monday, October 08, 2007

waiting for the sky

today
what is it with me today ?
is it the monday's blues?
i am not sure why but
lately, i feel like him...



waiting for something to fall from the sky
some answers and direction, i guess
anything to scare away
this dullness

a gray monday today

Sunday, October 07, 2007

haruki murakami


haruki murakami
just read anything and all by him!

he's insightful
he's modern
he's cryptic

and he owned a jazz bar in Tokyo
for many years...
one of my favorite nowadays writers


ich und einen wenig Bücher

Saturday, October 06, 2007

Oktoberfest - the California version



as part of meinen Deutschstunde
ich gehe heute Abend zu Oktoberfest
the one in El Cajon, this little town
vecinity of San Diego

ich trinke Warstein Pilsener
i have this theory that if i drink
plenty of German beer
meine Deutsch will improve



but funny
'cause when i came home
i wanted another beer
and i had some Guinness Draught
those cans that have a little ball
to draft the beer nicely

so i assume Guinness improves my English
yet not my German
so i guess at the end of the day
and so much beer, i am back to
Hablar en Español



y sí despues de todo
es mejor
decir buenas noches
así, con en tu mano,
todo el corazón