this past Saturday good feeling lined up for me i went back to yoga after almost 3 weeks... it was great to stretch the body, the mind and overall, the soul later.... i had lunch at my favorite bakery Bread & Cie, a roasted eggplant & feta cheese sandwich
i never saw the bottom of the paper bags, lovely motto!
later i went to pick up some film photos 35mm that i took a while ago with my old Nikkormat a 1972 Japanese camera here a sample, even if digital cameras are so convenient i still love the feel of a developed film, the grain the texture, the contrasts, there are somethings that technology cannot fool
to top my lovely Saturday, i went to the movies! i used to go to the movies so often before these days i watch more DVDs or movies on my computer just like with cameras, nothing tops the rush of watching a movie on the big screen...
now it's Monday and i had to work the memories of that lovely day are just that memories, and a post on the blog now... ah sighs...
i choose Christopher Nolan's Inception as i wrote on Facebook: from the strange, brilliant, and confusing mind of Christopher Nolan, i watched Inception tonight... as i tweeted, you'll either love it or will get a strong headache... if you like Christopher Nolan films, watch Following, his 1st film, noir noir and probably still the best one, Inception is pretty close too, i personally liked it
last week i got a wonderful package on the mail it came all the way from England!! courtesy of my eFriend nellyb from 23hqcom the goodies she sent me where designed by fishink, his designs are so lovely! i got some notebooks, stickers, and a stamp all very cool it's so nice to find out artist still feel love for our beloved feathered friends
as i rejoice many days on life's beauty i immerse on life's strangeness and seemingly unfairness many times too
times at work haven't been fine internal unfairness mixed with deadlines extra working hours, etc. etc. etc.
and as i whine and complain like a little girl in a rush to make it to my yoga class feed cats, feed birds, and try to find a corner of peace i fell from the two steps outside my house
a swollen knee, with a deadline at work mixed with some anger, not such a good deal...
and i hear myself saying out loud: "life is so unfair"
i seat, turn on the TV, the news... the Pakistan floods and i feel so unfairly stupid for whining before
i have a job i have a life i have a swollen knee but i am alive and haven't lost my life and little properties, and family to a flooding
life is not unfair for me i am only too used to be OK in spite of all my physical little maladies i am OK
i am not sure why i've been thinking of mortality lately maybe 'cause of the stress but also, as i approach the end of this project that has been taking me too long i morbidly thought as i drove home back from work:
what if i die today? even if it's an easy project nobody really knows where all my files are nobody would really finish it, i know it! such is the nature of my office probably it will forgotten over the little ceremony of my death probably nobody will push to finish it
and then i started thinking so when somebody who lives alone, like me, dies who empties their refrigerator? who takes out the trash? who goes through your sock & underwear drawer? who waters your plants? who feeds your cats? (i have plans and a life insurance for them, but still...) who checks your e-mails and replies that you are dead? who updates your blog?!!??
i guess that's why the call death the great unfetter from this world 'cause i guess, then, you don't really care about these little details that some mornings seem like a blessing, and some others like a challenge
as much as death might seem like freedom some days i really enjoy being alive having the possibility to be mad at people at work and at lousy drivers who don't use their blinkers to change lanes i love to be able to breath even if to find out that my head hurts again
strange life events thoughts over dead people socks' drawers and work stress i guess they all come with life so i type here tonight instead of bending my heart and my body at my yoga class 'cause on the rushed way to relaxing i fell