Thursday, December 31, 2009

a blue moon for a new year

today was a special day
the last one of 2009
a rather hard year for me,
death was sniffing around...
but with hope in the heart
and a double full moon, a blue moon
on the skies
i plan to start smiling this 2010

my poor attempt to photograph the captivating full moon without a tripod, too lazy to set it up...

this morning i went to my yoga class
and to celebrate the rare event of a blue moon
instead of sun salutations we did moon salutations

the version we did is a bit modified from the one on the link
i've never heard or done before moon salutations
so i thought that was pretty cool
probably the last thing i've learned in this 2009

a closer failure, but hey! there's a photo,
a bad one, but a photo nevertheless...

later, i had lunch at Jyoti Bihanga with my friend
el perro, was nice to see him before the year ends
i spent the last hours of 2009 putting together
an IKEA little table and getting rid of my old desk

i think is a nice superstition to start the new year
with a clean home, and even though i did clean much
i cleared the old desk and set the new table

i took a shower and now i rest the day
counting the hours, the minutes, not for 2009 to end
but for 2010 to begin
my two friendos the gatos are fast asleep
frau Kitty on her post, and herr Gato on the couch
i decided to not go out tonight but to stay in & relax
and it feels as Radiohead would say
Everything in its Right Place

and i guess is normal to make resolutions for the new year
i have no intentions to go hard on myself
but i do hope in 2010 to read more
about 300 books heh heh
and to do yoga more often, yes, to work out too
but specially more yoga, i do feel so fine
while facing downward like a dog

a warm eHug for you reading here
thank you for being my eFriend
and i sincerely wish you the healthiest of existences
for this coming year, and always in your life
a healthy body, a healthy mind, and a healthy gentle soul

as today, and tonight i am
loving being alive another day
another year, another decade!
& thankful for coming all the way
from 1969 to 2010!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009


2009 comes to an end
i spend the last days of it,
living some time-off

after enjoying a lovely yet hectic week
with my mom visiting in San Diego,
shopping, visiting friends, and running around

my mom and I at The Old Soud

now i seat and relax and do not much...
unrushed coffee in the mornings
bread, jam, with a side of sweet slow,
then a yoga class in the morning or a walk

it's Dec. 29th and i bought myself a lateish Christmas gift,
this lovely yoga mat bag, on white, light blue and pale yellow boats,
like inviting to let your OMs roll all the way to San Diego's shores...
with big round buttons and cute metal button on top,
i have 2 yoga mats, but never a yoga mat bag before
[insert picture of wide smile here]

cooking slow lunch, like baked potatoes for an hour
with chopped tomatoes, vinegar,
slowness, laziness, smilingness and olive oil

i was about to take a picture of the fresh baked potato but couldn't resist,
i stopped right before i finished it, only it could be documented

and many coffee cups and plenty of tea pots
from this and other worlds...
and some fruit too, so the guilt is not too strong

am really liking it a lot,
this end-of-the-year's idle song...

Friday, December 25, 2009

Feliz Navidad

wishing that the celebration of Christmas
always full of lights, warmth, and joy
make your heart jingle with some love
and puts a smile upon your soul

Guadalajara, Jalisco, Mexico - December 2008

today we celebrate, regardless of being Catholics,
Christians, Pagans, or so on,
the birth of one the 'coolest' souls ever to be born
Jesus Christ
one of my favorite entities of this our troubled
western world

to think that a little baby Jesus brought literally
a new era to this world, with only a message of peace
tolerance and love, is something to smile about

receive an electronic yet very warm hug
if you come across this page

and hopefully, regardless of being religious or not,
we all will practice some of the humility he taught...

here some of his wise words, they still make sense
after 2000 years or so

“No one lights a lamp and puts it in a place where it will be hidden, or under a bowl. Instead he puts it on its stand, so that those who come in may see the light.”

“For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.”
-Jesus Christ

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Vivaldi in LA

i am getting really excited...
tomorrow Sunday
my mom and I take the train
to Los Angeles to see
the LA Philharmonic playing
Vivaldi's Four Seasons
and other baroque delights

at the wonderful Walt Disney Hall
a superb auditorium
i have been there twice before
for a performance of
Anthony and the Jhonsons & the Philharmonic
and later for M83's plus Philharmonic
rather unique concerts

but this will be my 1st time to attend
and actual 'classic classical' concert there
looking forward to listen to Vivaldi
next to my mother, whose appreciation for fine
music is superb, as for notable venues

also the ride on the Amtrak by the
Southern California coast, shall be a delight
specially with ravishing weather we are having here!

wait for reviews of the concert coming soon!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

reposting: walk into the sea

tonight i mentioned Low, the band, again
one of my favorite bands of all times
and this lovely song
Walk into the Sea
that i posted a while ago

tonight, again
haven't listened to it in years
and with so many things going on my life right now
busy at work, deadlines at school, end of the semester
the Holidays rush, my mom visiting and so on

on an quiet corner late at night
while my mom and my 2 cats
fast asleep are
i listen to Low...
hope you too, join me and

[I could walk into the sea]
And choke away the memory
Do I have to stay alive
Just to keep our dresses white?

You come to me in dreams
With all the other pretty things
You tell me about a Savior
And how the soul lives on forever

And time is just a hunger
It bleeds us out to nothing
And when it finally takes us over
I hope we’ll float away together

Yeah, time’s the great destroyer
Leaves every child a bastard
When it finally takes us over
I hope we’ll float away together

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

a bit disconnected from the blog
from 23, and even from my visiting mom
working on my school final project for this
semester... designing a website with
CSS positioning, no tables, no no!!

so instead of blogging
i am htmling / cssing

page that one day will display
my working portfolio
in the meantime, it holds the
final assignment for the last
class of this semester...

hope i can optimize it and feed it
the actual content soon...

Thursday, December 10, 2009


reading around
i came across Diatton's post on
Dead Can Dance
an old favorite band of mine

so i remember this song
beautiful songs capture of souls
i was fortunate enough
to see them live in San Diego
for that 2005 tour reunion
Diatton talks about
they were s·pec·ta·cu·lar
hope you enjoy!

Favored signs to find hope
In the rounds of life
Favored rhymes to find hope
In the sands of life

Monday, December 07, 2009

windy Diego

today the weather in San Diego was nothing
like its sunny self...
with wind gusts over 55 mph
(over 80 kilometers per hour...)
and raining the whole day
not too hard
but constant rain

i don't think i have ever seen
winds so strong in my life before
only maybe on TV

18 neighborhoods lost electricity
since last night, 250 car accidents happened
southern Californians have no idea
how to drive in the rain
and even less how NOT to...
flooding all over the place
and many trees have fallen
the streets are full of palm tree fallen leaves
and it's snowing in the closer mountains

my friends the sparrows
try to hide from the wind and rain
they ate for a little some wet seeds
and then they left again
i wonder were birds hide from strong wings

and a board from the back of my house fell off!
now i know how the 3 little pigs felt
when the big bad wolf said:
"Let me in, Let me in, little pig(s)
or I'll huff and I'll puff and I'll blow your house in!"

the three little pigs being
Frau Kitty, Herr Gato, and me...

and for a while in the morning Herr Gato escaped
and hid under the house, the rain felt harder
and he didn't dare to come back

after 4 or 5 hours, about 2pm
the rain became milder
so he came in, soaking wet
after some good towel dry,
a can of wet food, and some pets
he went back be his lazy self...

and even if i enjoy cloudy rainy days
specially since we get so little rain around here
the winds so strong were the ones
that made the situation very scary

Frau Kitty hides under a blanket, keeping warm

Sunday, December 06, 2009

adiós a mi tío Pepe

mi tío Pepe, at my mom's garden in Autlán, December 2008

This Sunday morning my humble household
Apparently remains unchanged
The cats come & go
Beg for food, and stroll about
The birds graze around
And the mild coldish sun
Shows its beans, shy

Yet the news of death
Filter through a distant telephone line
Once again on this deadly 2009

Last night my aunt Elena who was visiting
In Guadalajara told me that my uncle Jose
Suffered a heart attack
But she was hopeful that he was to recover
I couldn’t talk to my mother, she was with him
Spending the night at the hospital

And early this morning, 6.30 am my time
The phone rang...
Complications after the heart attack
And being my uncle diabetic and in bad shape
Most of his life
This one has abandoned him all together
At once

My uncle was younger than my mother
But his life was always so hectic
That he looked older than her
I am not sure how old exactly he was
But I do know he was not yet 60
Close, but not 60 yet
57? 58?

And one thing that is a comfort for all
Family, I hope
Is that he lived an authentic rich life
Not the way most people think of a rich life
But for rich, in his peculiar ways…
He was a heavy drinker, a ‘party animal’
he really never took much care of himself
I guess he was one of those souls
Who agree with the old saying
“live free or die”
Vivre libres ou mourir

He lived for many years here in the US
In San Francisco, and then Portland
He was a truck driver most of his life
Had a great sense of humor
he was a pleasant person
with always cheerful manners
And over all a great sense of charity
I remember seeing my uncle
Getting rid of an expensive jacket once
That he has just received as a Christmas present
And handed it to a homeless drunk guy
Of course the aunt who just gave it to him
As a gift was sort of disappointed
But that was my uncle
He was never rich, yet he worked hard his whole life
And every penny he ever made
He shared with his friends
Who were never among the “good people”
He loved to surround himself with homeless people
And drink with them
Worth saying that my grandma and his sisters suffered
A big deal ‘cause of his 'free-living ways'
But then again, I am sure my uncle
Sure enjoyed his life

These photos of him and my mom
I took in December 2008 in Autlán Jalisco
Back in 2007, and because of his diabetes
My uncle almost lost a leg while living in Portland
I remember my aunt Margarita and my mother
Traveling from Mexico to a lost town in Oregon
To sort of rescue him…
The whole family thought that once my uncle
Was in Mexico, he would stop drinking and taking
Care of himself
But my uncle was still so full of life
And he sure loved to play around
To surprise of my mom and aunt
He started having an affair with the maid!
Which actually makes me smile
She is a married lady too!
So the small Mexican town was scandalized
Yet I am sure my uncle was happy
To enjoy yet again of some forbidden love
And even if I miss him now
I somehow would love to raise a glass of wine
In his name and memory
Cause even if gone now
I am quite sure mi tio Pepe
From heaven, and by his mom
Is smiling down to us
Left still on this terrene life

My grandma had 7 children
5 women and 2 men
And this is the first of these siblings
To go away
my grandma died in 2005
so i guess is better that she didn't see him die
I am sure they are together now
she always loved his so much
that other siblings were jealous of him
but also we all know
she worried so much about him and loved him so much
'cause he was indeed her 'trouble child'

And I am extremely sorry and worry
For my mother, she loved him so much too
she didn't care saying always
'my favorite brother'
And it’s the first time in her life
That she loses a brother

my mom and her beloved brother Pepe

So far this year
My mom has lost an ex-husband (my dad)
And a brother
And she endless worries over my frail
health, the damn asthma, the migraines,
my IBS…
now i worry over her too
she just recovered from pneumonia
and at age 62 is facing osteoporosis
she was supposed to arrive to Los Angeles
this Tuesday December 8
but the trip has been postponed or maybe canceled

after my infinite strolling around for years
every time i have vacation for the past 5 years
i either rush to Mexico to visit my family
or to Germany to see Thilo
so i decided mostly 'cause of health
to spend my 2 free weeks at the end of the year
here in San Diego
not jumping on a plane as soon as i get out of work
for once, and so my mom agreed to spend Christmas
here with me...
now this changes everything
and with flight prices so expensive and my horrible
health, i am not sure i can go to Mexico either

My oldest aunt, tia Marilu
Suffered a great deal this year too
With pancreatic cancer
And we all thought that being she the oldest
And with such a terrible sickness
That she would be the first one to part

But as usual, life and death
Are full of surprises
So just like that
My uncle is gone now…
and miraculously my aunt Mary
is recovering
she's such a sweet lady too

and to end

Gracias tío Pepe!
For the times you made me smile
And for showing me that sometimes
We just have to embrace the fun of life
Even if that means to be less healthy
And eventually, younger, have to die

my uncle's full name was
José de Jesús Navarro Uribe
descanse en paz
rest in peace
i am sure many friends here in the US
and in Mexico will raise a glass of wine
on his name and give him a last smile

he had 3 children
2 older men from his first marriage
and a lovely daughter from his second marriage
he didn't live with any of them
but here a picture of 2 of his grandsons
Hector and Nano, sons of his daugter Zarina
this photo from 2005
who lives close to San Diego
Hector, the older kid
the one on the back
sweetly hugging his brother
reminds me a lot of my uncle
he's restless and passionate
and with the same beautiful fair eyes

Hector and Nano, my uncle Pepe's grandsons, South Gate 2005

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

mote & migraine Wednesday

today i woke up with a bad headache
and an awful sinus pain
made it to work only to leave
a couple of hours later
after many pills (which i hate taking)
failed attempts of naps and
uncountable cups of tea
i feel a little better...

so, looking around the web
i found a Sonic Youth song/quote/post
on a German blog
and it reminded me of how much i loved this song
and how Sonic Youth was, and still is,
one of my favorite bands of all times
and how much i appreciate, specially all the songs
written and sung by Lee Ranaldo
my preferred poet of noise
so this is not migraine-curing music
but it's good to remember good old things of
one's youth, when feeling down
so here, enjoy Mote, strange video
and weird lovely noisy tunes
and some good obscure lyrics to scream to

When you see the spiral turning through alone
And you feel so heavy that you just can't stop it
When this sea of madness turns you into stone
Picture of your life shoots like a rocket
All the time

Put 'me' in the equation it's alright
I've seen you moving in and out of sight
My friends tell me it's all cut through you (?)
From nowhere - to nowhere
Cut together - cutting through

I'm island-bound, a mote inside my eye
I can't see you breathing as before
I am airless - a vacuum child
I can't stand to reason at your door
In this time

Put 'me' in the equation it's alright
I've seen you moving in and out of sight
My friends tell me it's all cut through you (?)
From nowhere - to nowhere
Come together

I'm down in the daytime out of sight
Comin' in from dreamland I'm on fire
I can see it's all been here before
Dream a dream that lies right at your door

When the seasons circle sideways out of turn
And words don't speak just fall across the carpet
You're just in time to watch the fires burn
It seems a crime but yr. face is bright you love it
All the time...