ah! these days the beginnings the endings the time the work the routine the days ah! these days they are so strange and then again, the same the life this static adventure that moves fast and the feels like it stopped
and a song and january is gone of 2011 every second is of it, is gone is less
and the sounds and the time spent with eyes closed at home or bored of stress behind a desk where we type tiny black letters that never make sense
i started writing this last night and then i didn't finished it i miss my blog, i miss my life i miss my mom, and sure going to miss my boss!
this January really started with some core changes to my life my boss of 6, almost 7 years, that btw, has been my best friend of 10 years, is quitting the job tomorrow is his last day, and even if he's a fair person and doesn't let me get away with 'bad' behavior at work surely it has been great to have your best friend as boss
now all will change, i am on my own in this company i know the co-workers very well now, and most of them are really nice and understandable people, yet being a small non-profit company we tend to be a bit on the disorganized side
oh well...
and then i miss my mom like hell she was here with me for a bit over a month she was sooo much help! she took care of the Gatos of the food, of the cleaning, and was always waiting for me with a warm plate of home re-friend beans and whole grain bread and tortillas and a hot cup of rooibos tea
i've always been a fairly independent person i am much of a loner, and i always had some sort of trouble towards authoritative figures
and now... i cannot believe i am missing my mom, and my boss
oh well, life does change
so last night i was curing myself by drinking little sips of cheap chardonnay accompanied of ginger snaps while listening to this moody Iranian (?) song Ghalab El Hawa
and contemplating some photos of my mom i took in December, like this one where she's holding a San Francisco de Asis photography book
those were the times! now, only 1 month later, all has changed
very interesting article regarding something that encumbers you as you are on the internet right now, huh? floatingsheep: Internet access as a human right: "Five countries have now declared internet access as a fundamental human right. Four of these countries are in Europe (Estonia, Finland, Fra..."
yet yet not soon enough Julian Barnes is one of my preferred authors i love his cleverness and subtle graceful sarcasm i've read a couple of his books the wonderful collection of short stories The Lemon Table his 'tour de France' Flaubert's Parrot
one of my favorite novels ever Arthur & George based on a real-life case of Sir Arthur Conan Doyle's life
with every book, Barnes keeps his voice and talent flawless yet every books is so different from the other one
truly a genius of our now-a-days literature
his new collection of short stories, Pulse is already being read in England it won't be published here in the US until May 2011 but that is OK, i still have one of his books in my bookshelf waiting to be read Nothing to Be Frightened Of
so i won't be frightened of not having enough Barnes book to read and i will wait patiently for the next...
in the meantime i am actually reading this other book Room by Emma Donoghue a dark dark tale, but more on that later
sharing the good things of the last & few new days like the little view from our table at the Fish Market's Top of the Market restaurant, where my mom & i celebrated our New Year's Eve dinner wonderful view with excellent food
and this 'ambiance' tune courtesy of one of my preferred musicians mister Brian Eno, Emerald And Stone from his new album [one of my Christmas gifts] Small Craft On A Milk Sea
and a little poem by Emily Dickinson and the row of mourning doves waiting for me to fill the feeder
and i can only hope that this year is full of birds, and lovely sounds, and good food, great views, and good loving company for all of you, and for me...
A Bird came down the Walk (328)
A Bird came down the Walk— He did not know I saw— He bit an Angleworm in halves And ate the fellow, raw,
And then he drank a Dew From a convenient Grass— And then hopped sidewise to the Wall To let a Beetle pass—
He glanced with rapid eyes That hurried all around— They looked like frightened Beads, I thought— He stirred his Velvet Head
Like one in danger, Cautious, I offered him a Crumb And he unrolled his feathers And rowed him softer home—
Than Oars divide the Ocean, Too silver for a seam— Or Butterflies, off Banks of Noon Leap, plashless as they swim.
A Happy New Year 2011 Ein glückliches neues Jahr 2011! Un Feliz Año Nuevo 2011
is my wish to you all
this morning San Diego is beautifully sunny and cold the city smiled at us once again with its golden smile this has been a good year as i feel my years have been lately in spite of it all no matter if sick, mad, tired, or broke lately i enjoy more of life of the enjoy of being alive so i hope i can share with you this feeling of no matter what being thankful for being alive
i hope 2011 brings you peace, health, love, and plenty of smiles, even if those silly ones that your mouth draws without an apparent reason, those are the best
this morning, i took this close-up of a mourning dove she wasn't mourning but getting ready to celebrate the beginning of a new year in our lives!
A Happy New Year 2011 Ein glückliches neues Jahr 2011! Un Feliz Año Nuevo 2011
i was raised as a catholic and even though my behavior inclines more towards the sinner side than to the holiness and respect of church and catholic rules i do feel a profound respect for Jesus Christ not so much for the church institution yet...
i don't question myself if he's the "one" our "savior" or just another "prophet" but i sure know he was one of the 'coolest' men on Earth ever, and has influenced our culture more than most historical characters
and sure why not? deep in my heart when i struggle, i find myself, even to my own surprise repeating his name
yes! i admire him and i am thankful to be able to celebrate his birthday, that winter day when a little boy was born to change the face of Earth
happy birthday little baby Jesus and Merry Christmas to you all!
one of my favorite Christmas songs by one of my favorite bands is this little song about offering the little that you have in life with all the love you can, just like this drummer boy that has nothing else to offer but his drum playing
& also here my little Nativity scene "Nacimiento" as we call it in Spanish for days i've been so busy, & i keep on procrastinating on decorating the little card-stock box that holds it but about a week ago, i realized Jesus taught humility so what can be more humble than a card-stock box with some Mexican crafts representing the scene?
i am glad this year i placed my Nativity scene and was able to share these cozy days with my beloved mother and my two cats
¡Feliz Navidad!
i started writing this on December 24 but didn't add the photo until now as usual, am a little late hope you are having a good ending of 2010
this is a wish that might come true next year depending on my economical situation the book is not that expensive, but is not out yet in the US actually, i would love to only be able to watch the wonderful prints, more than even own the book
The Guardian UK has a very interesting review of the book "The river," writes Kander, "is embedded in the consciousness of the Chinese, even for those who live thousands of miles from it. It plays a significant role in the spiritual and physical life of the people." read the whole article here
now if you feel compelled to send this book as a Christmas or New Year's gift for your friend blogger here please send me an e-mail and i will send you back my mailing address ;)
Christmas is almost here! and i still believe in Santa i've been a good woman all year, so this book and the other wishes from the list, might just appear at my doorstep on Christmas morning, eh?