Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Adiós to Herr Kiyo



I have been delaying
posting anything on the blog
being sort of ‘superstitious’
I didn’t want my 1st post of the year
To be a sad one

Yet, the days of 2009
Are passing like clear water
And since the sadness hasn’t
Fade away, here goes the 1st post
Even if sad

On January 2nd my beloved
Best-friend pet fish herr Kiyo
Died
I guess was a mixture of
Bad weather, his age
he being not easy to feed anymore
and maybe missing a bit
that took him away from
the land of the living

just as the character in the novel
that he was named after
the beautiful adolescent Kiyoaki
from Yukio Mishima's novel Spring Snow
Kiyo died soon in life
and in a sort of tragic way

5 days have passed
And I still go now & then
To check his water temperature
And to say hello on his bowl
Just to realize
The bowl is gone
And to remember that herr Kiyo
Was buried on January 3rd

I still catch myself at work,
When it gets too cold
Wondering if his temperature at home
Is the right one
And the next second, when I remember
He’s not around anymore
A little lump in my throat forms
And even if I don’t want to
I grow sad

Ah… oh well, I know he’s in fish heaven
Or whatever place the spirits of fishes go

I just thank life for having borrowed me
That lovely piece of red fish for a couple
Of years, so I could photographing
Spoil him, take care of him
And share some smiles

Not sure why
But just as 2008, this year
Started strange too,
February and March 2008
Where the harshest months for me
And now it seem that this January 2009
Is coming strong too
after Kiyo’s death
I contracted this awful throat infection
Days passed and I still haven’t recovered
I’d like to think that what my grandma told me once
It’s true… when a year starts bad, it’s ‘cause
You are getting the ‘bad stuff’ out of your way
So you can enjoy more later on…
2008 was indeed ‘in crescendo’
And ended with a wonderful trip to Mexico
And reconnecting with family members
Who I haven’t seen in years
Therefore, I am sure, this 2009
Will bloom with happiness for me somehow

Danke!, thank you y muchas gracias
My beloved Herr Kiyo
For many months of your lovely company
All I can give you back now
Is a sad post on this world-wide web life

13 comments:

Frau Feli said...

Oh Dear, how sad is this! I feel so sorry for you! And the photo of him looks so pretty, the deep red color and the loong tail..i was supersad when my cat got lost and didn't come back, so I understand you :(( But things will get better as the temperature rises (I hope..!) All the best, and many many hugs to you!

bereweber said...

hola lovely Felita, so nice to read you around here, and yes, you understand the sadness of a lost furry friend, huh? thanks for your supporting words, and yes! hope that Berlin warms up your great heart too!
hugs back to you!
Ich wünsche Dir einen schönen Tag :)

Masanobu said...

berenice,

Sorry to hear that your fish died. My father died in October 2008. I still call his name in my prayer with my living mother. This way I can maintain my inner continuity, which support and sustain myself.

All living things die to sustain their offsprings. We are grateful for that matter.
- MT

bereweber said...

hola Masanobu

i am thankful for your words and glad that you are reading here. I am very sorry for your lost, I can barely imagine the pain of the lost of your father. Your words about death and the continuity of life are precious to me, so I am very thankful to you for them. I feel death is the ultimate representation of life, and the lack of life of the ones around us seems to confront us with our own mortality, but the way you express your lost makes life more significant

I send you a warm salute from San Diego and peace for your heart and your mother's too. Whenever I say a small prayer I will include your memories too.

as it's good to know that the new year brings old friends back... good to be in touch with you again!

Masanobu said...

berenice,

Please don't call me "old." (ha ha ha...) - MT

bereweber said...

well Masanobu
my 'religion' is against lies ;) heh heh heh but anyways...
glad to be in touch with you again, my 'young' friend! ;)

Masanobu said...

berenice,

You're so kind... I now feel YOUNG! I'm also glad to feel your words again.

Georg said...

A lovely fish indeed, Berenice. So sorry you have lost him (or her).

If there is a paradise for fishes, I just hope she can go on swimming there, in comfortably warm water and a friendly person always ready to feed.

RIP

Georg

alberto centurion basso said...

I'm sorry for your sadness dear Major Tom, it's tough when beloved ones walk away. The good thing is that it's only a matter of time until we can be reunited with them, again, up there in the immense magical sky, flying through stars in our new shiny and glowing body (I've always thought we will emerge as lights once we leave here our current container)...

Beautiful post, bere bere although a sad one indeed... You need to write something for me to be read at my funeral one day...

bereweber said...

herr Georg, thank you so much for your condolences, am sure my fishy fish is happy wherever he's now :)

and dear Ground Control

This is major tom to ground control!
Im stepping through the door
And Im floating in a most peculiar way
And the stars look very different today

For here
Am I sitting in a tin can
Far above the world
Planet earth is blue
And theres nothing I can do...

but one thing I would like to remind you Ground Control, this Major Tom is older than you and because of natural selection I truly hope to abandon this world before you do!!! I really wish I never get to see any of my friends depart, I rather depart first!! so NO epitaphs for you, but hoping you are the one that will have to play some drums for me when my departure... but just in case the life plays unfair, then it will be my honor to write what I know about you... a wonderful legendary friend, and the best most talented graphic designer I have ever had the honor of working with...
Change and over...
Major Tom

Georg said...

Dear Berenice,

That is a truly poetic good bye to Major Tom. And I like Ground Control very much.

So she is a he. Considering the voilage he appeared to me like a she but now I see this is Tom, a high ranking officer in the Tin Can Army.

Cheers, Berenice
Georg

vincent said...

Hallo georg!!!!
Que fais tu aux états unis????
Je te croyais dans le cantal!!!
biss dann

Id it is said...

Separations are painful, regardless of the distance that separates!

Sorry to hear that!