concerned

the feeling of today
is
worried, uneasy
at my own home

a strange episode last night
and i was reminded of the fragility of life

just as i was feeling settled again here
with mister/herr/señor Kiyo who is back at home!
and his new friend meine luminous Eidechse...


Kiyo, his mirror, and his new luminous friend Eidechse

and then some episodes
you just don't see them coming
accidents, and other violent matters
occur just like that
unexpectedly...

and to confess, i am afraid
the quintessential German word
die Angst
takes over my dorsal spine
one vertebrae at the time

as related the story of last night
episode's this morning, came to my mind
this scene from
"The Night of the Hunter"



"It's a hard world for little things..."

creepy, but an excellent film
from 1955, don't miss it!
Robert Mitchum as the bad guy...


Kiyo and his traveling house

vista

long monday.
windows vista installed at work.
bad.



(but at least)
got the Adobe CS3 Web Premium.

oh that means Photoshop CS3.
hm.
hmm.
hmmm.

jet-lag a bit still.

petit monday blues

perhaps
vielleicht
'cause san diego is this morning
again
wieder
covered by mist and rain

perhaps
vielleicht
'cause
i have to come into work again

perhaps
vielleicht
'cause the wonderful Urlaub is over

perhaps
vielleicht
is why i have this monday melancholy today
but it is a petit, mild melancholy

like a sweet memory afar
of a nice fragrance, of a happy smell

the kind of melancholy
that almost feel comfortable
like a gray spongy pillow
a melancholy that is nice...

feliz año nuevo 2008

Frohes Neues Jahr!
Happy New Year!
¡Feliz Año Nuevo!

i think is not too late for this post
wishing a happy new year if you come across here



i know that what cross this wintry german sky is
just a plane
but my little soul got tricked into the belief
that is a falling star!
eine Sternschnuppe...
loaded with warm wishes of love and peace
for this new year

i wish that a falling star
crosses your sky too
and drops on her way
for you some warm dreams
and

Prost!
Cheers!
y... ¡Salud!

taking off

life flies
and we take off
another Christmas
another year



and merry Christmas!
and let hope make softer
the colors of your life
these memories, these years

warm wishes!
as your eyes pose here

abfliegen, Christmas, der Urlaub, taking off

fertig!/i am done/¡ya está!

endlich habe ich meine erste Deutsch Semester beendet
finally i have finished my German 101 Semester
finalmente, terminé el primer semestre de Alemán



leider spreche ich noch nicht so gut Deutsch
ich kenne nur Präsens!
kein Partizip kein Futur
ich spreche buddhistisch Deutsch

unfortunately, that doesn't mean i really speak good German
i just know the Present tense
no Past and no Future tenses
a very Buddhist version German

pero eso no significa que ya hablo bien Alemán
solo sé conjugar verbos en el tiempo presente
no hay pasado, no hay futuro
mi Alemán es muy budista

x-mas

i got my 1st x-mas present!
from el perro's parents



i haven't open it
of course!

they always send me such neat things!
ah mostly wonderful books!
can't wait to see...

cute TV commercial

oh TV commercials can be cool!

love this one from Adidas
my favorite parts
the kid taking the coin from Platini hands
"Hey yo soy el Capitán" he says...

and well the kids giving positions to play
to the super players



cute indeed!
oh i was supposed to write in Spanish
and be all pissed off now
but after some home-made remedies
heh heh
i am not anymore

trouble with the Police

after a long day with
.-much stress and much work
.-many meetings
.-feeling sick all day
.-a 2.30 hr Deutsch class from 7.05pm until 9.30pm
.-being for 12 hours out of my house
.-a pain on my neck that i have for almost 2 weeks now

i start driving back from Mesa college...
still inside the school
a Police car stopped me for speeding!
on a 15 MPH zone i was driving 25 MPH

when you think a day can't go worse
it does

so... too much for me tonight
my only relief by now is to write & cry

so i do that now:
like in the old times
cure the misery by writing
and crying... until it stops
so...

write and cry
write and cry
write and cry

(this is not working)
let's see auf Deutsch

ich schreibe und weine
ich schreibe und weine
ich schreibe und weine
ich schreibe und weine
ich schreibe und weine
ich schreibe und weine
ich schreibe und weine
ich schreibe und weine

Nein! arbeitet nicht
vielleicht auf Spanisch

escribiendo y llorando
escribiendo y llorando
escribiendo y llorando
escribiendo y llorando
escribiendo y llorando
escribiendo y llorando
escribiendo y llorando
escribiendo y llorando

mucho mejor... ah!
y además ya nadie checa este blog
ni en inglés ni español
so why bother huh?

much better in Spanish
and after all nobody reads here
in English nor Deutsch anymore

so...

empiezo mi diario otra vez en Español
tal vez es lo mejor

was just a strange day
seems a stranger night
still in English though
a soundly...
FUCK!

desperation is the English way after all
didn't say that Pink Floyd?

another Sunday

life
in the sky
or on earth
happens every day
busy is the existence of humans
and busy it's the life of birds
and today...
was just another December Sun-day
living in southern California