Wednesday, March 12, 2008

zeppelin sounds

and as suggested per
moloko vellocet
ah! a led zeppelin therapy
and with tomorrow another cup of hot café
the cure is reaching soon the head



and things seem to be setting into place

thank God for comments, friends, telephones,
working-breaks, communications, food,
smells, distant and close voices, música
and yes! for mental break-downs...
también!!

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

pointless (zapatos viejos y pantuflas)

this night
all feels so pointless

so gray
and so boring...

tired like my old shoes
sleepy like my over-used pantuflas



now that the physical pain is gone
seems that a strange indifference
has taken over me and lately
sophomoric dreams are one-sided
and lonely

if you were to knock at my door
one splendid night!
oh lovely surprise
it would be
to mix my little home
and your smiles

but, no surprises
no furtive messages
another long night alone
again, boring...

yet i still wait
for a coming morning
even if nothing
even if empty
even if lonely

because
in the mornings
at least there's the aroma of coffee

i have survived 38 years
with and without little disappointments
not even sun rays are always there
but one can make her own coffee
that scares away this
my self aromas of loneliness

Sunday, March 09, 2008

time loss, weight gain

today the day loses 1 hour
daylight saving time


meine Eieruhr (oder Sanduhr) - meine Küche
my egg-timer (sand clock) - my kitchen
reloj de arena - mi cocina

and an hour less or an hour more
we cannot stop the pass of time
here my little 3 minute sand-clock
i use it for brewing teas and running eggs
and every time it dances up-side down
i know i have 3 minutes less
or have gained 3 more...

but not all is lost, some is gained!

and since i have been eating very well
i have gained some pounds!!

this morning's "light" breakfast
mein "kleines" Frühstück
mmm, latkes...
those potato pancakes,
eggs and wheat pancake
plus sauces, not so light, i think...
oh the coffee was great though
Peet's Garuda Blend



last night's 3rd dinner
a delicious Double Chocolate Stout
an indulgent Bier beer cerveza



at the end all balances itself out
what??!! noooo...

Saturday, March 08, 2008

today, die Bücherei

Besuch der Bücherei
Visit to the library
visita a la Biblioteca



hier\here\aquí

i read Spring Snow in 2005
my friend Lisa gave it to me
it is part of Yukio Mishima's tetralogy
The Sea of Fertility
today, after 3 year, i picked up
at the library
the volume 2...
Runaway Horses



Mishima writes some beautiful passages
and profound characters that remind you
of what serious literature is for


as seen on the 2nd Floor of the Mesa College Library
San Diego, California - 3/08/2008

Friday, March 07, 2008

finally!

endlich
at last
finalmente

i have finished all the antibiotics

in 30 days
i took 70 antibiotics pills
separated in 2 sets of
1 week and then
10 days



and as mister Daniel Defoe's text
points
"this thing has very much affected me"
but today i start to feel more like myself
[wonder if that's a good thing, maybe i was better
awfully quiet as i was... hmm, a thought for tonite]

and not sure why
but when i am sick or in an introspective mood
i always go back to read quirky old ghost stories
and short tales of a remote past
like this one
The Apparition of Mrs. Veal
short classic ghost story
from a long time ago
some old English words drove me
to the dictionary for a double check



but a treat for those my dizzy days!
good to be coming back to 'normal'
and tonight
i might even play more with pictures
and sounds
have a good weekend
wherever you are

Monday, March 03, 2008

no fotos, los antiobióticos y la insoportable levedad del ser

reading around blogs
it seems to me that
that in the 1st day of work of the week
maybe because of the Monday's blues
we all humans seem to think more about

that universal nothingness
"that sneaking feeling of existing"

for me i think the antibiotics had made it!
they put me on lazy and very dizzy spell
not really depressed but more tired
and unmotivated, and slightly dizzy
about to miss the equilibrium at each step
just a general fragility of spirit, body and character
and
i cannot play with photos
it makes me really sad!
'cause complex visual patterns make more dizzy
and already have to deal with a screen at work 8 hrs a day

and one of the things that scared that feeling away
has always been for me, to get lost on my photos
or the many of wonderful photographers around the
world wide web
but... ah these days

i miss watching photos on 23 and playing with mine
but little time and big headaches every time i try to see many images
ah sigh...

already 2 weeks and no photos...
sad
but soon! this wednesday i am finally off
this awful medication

and so much this feeling peruses around Mondays
that Milan Kundera wrote a book about it...
i read it many many years ago
and i barely remember the plot
maybe is time to re-read
have always loved the implications of the title

Die unerträgliche Leichtigkeit des Seins

The Unbearable Lightness of Being

La insoportable levedad del ser

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Lars Von Trier's Riget ("The Kingdom")

i rented in DVD the danish TV series
by Lars Von Trier, Riget or 'The Kingdom'

strange european TV series indeed
the series is 4 episodes, 2 on each DVD
last weekend i watched episodes 1 and 2
and going for the 3rd one right now...
there's a certain pleasure to watch ghost-stories
during the hours day
rather than dulling the day with its sun
the mystery, the mystery itself filters
into the little clouds up in the blue sunny sky
a good thriller is one that makes you chill your skin
at the plain sunlight

here the intro to the series
that have a spooky sepia-ish cinematography
and some angeled shots
wonderfully dark visuals of mister director
Lars Von Trier
some scenes taste very David Lynch too



here the text in English of the introduction
that talks of the origins and the land where nowadays
stands an advanced and modern danish Hospital
were strange things happens and the building itself
starts to cry down its own structure...

The Kingdom Hospital rests on ancient marshland
where the bleaching ponds once lay.
Here the bleachers moistened their great spans of cloth.
The steam evaporating from the wet cloth
shrouded the place in permanent fog.
Centuries later the hospital was built here.
The bleachers gave way to doctors and researchers,
the best brains in the nation and the most perfect technology.
To crown their work they called the hospital The Kingdom.
Now life was to be charted, and ignorance and superstition
never to shake the bastions of science again.
Perhaps their arrogance became too pronounced,
and their persistent denial of the spiritual.
For it is as if the cold and damp have returned.
Tiny signs of fatigue are appearing in the solid, modern edifice.
No living person knows it yet, but the gateway to the Kingdom
is opening once again.


and the trailers

strange days and smells

i haven't written in a while
last week's days were filled with strange episodes

.monday an ear infection
.tuesday a migraine kept me at home
.the rest of the working week flew OK
trying to rescue the 1st 2 lost days
.ein Wortschatz quiz on Thursday
.with a nice twist on Friday,
dinner a friend from México City
old ex-coworker from the Hard Rock Café

so, i haven't played with fotos
i have barely replied e-mails
surely i haven't written in a while

this morning came across
the stories sections on 23hq.com
i wrote these chunks of silly words there
before i created this blog

and remembered this one
the smell

so here today i remember
instead of creating
since still hurts my head

oh just hoping for more energy
for this Sunday
here i relate today again to a home-smell

the smell
my house smells like an older woman’s house
today’s sweet and strong
but a little dense
opened the door and it came in
in the core like a rush
the mixture of scents, an unrepeatable aroma
right now
there’s fig candle a cheap one
the expensive one is a stone mixture overprized store
of jasmine, & fig and all the-other-don’t-know
it changes every day
every minute you can say
if you got a nose or at all around come
for sure you can tell
and then the trash can left some little pieces of onion
very little not too strong
to make organic this matter at the most
it stands, food odors from there
and mixed with the rain outside and still a hint
(would said if preparing a perfume formula: add a 3%
of aroma reminiscent of fresh paint, just a 3 percent! not less no more)
and in 2 hrs i know won’t be quite the same
oh if i know
if my nose can calculate!!!

this
like the very first time you do something
unexpected
the first time while learning to drive you almost crashed
you didn’t, but learnt the fear
it left tracks
or the first encounter with someone
a friend of a friend
the aunt of the cousin of the neighbor
whatever
but then you become good friends, maybe even family
or co-workers or soul-companions
hopefully not insurance partners
and even less common-crime holders
but anyhow you’ll
remember that first encounter
blurry, escapes, like the memory of the almost-first-car-accident
because you didn’t expect it
and because it wasn’t impressive
you weren’t meeting somebody outrageous or too important
just a person
or you were just almost for the first time
a car crashing
what is the importance? if

as with aromas or acquaintances
most things around life
are a terrific accident

and now today is that smell
knowing it is happening but it won’t repeat itself
the old lady’s smell
and wish i could capture it ‘cause it suits my house so well
and surprisingly i so much like it
is not particularly good or too bad
it is just the smell of my home
and guess even if ever changing
and sadly probably won’t be able
to replicate accurately, the fortunate accident
immediately warm is & i can recognize it
is the smell of my house
and i like it!

Friday, February 29, 2008

Febrero 29

das Schaltjahr
Leap Year
Año bisiesto

oh another February 29...
a slit in the Gregorian calendar



you would've think that Leap Year would've been the word of the day
but not, here anyway Dictionary.com definition of a Leap Year:

"A year that contains 366 days, with February 29 as an additional day: occurring in years whose last two digits are evenly divisible by four, except for centenary years not divisible by 400."

Enjoy your extra day!

Sunday, February 24, 2008

the 80th Oscars



the only movie i have seen so far
out of 5 nominated for Oscar
for the best picture is
No Country for Old Men
here an earlier review



and no wonder i went to watch it
the day it came out...
a combination of the always-witty Coen brothers
with extraordinary talented
spanish actor Javier Bardem
cannot go wrong

so tonight, it won
best director(s) - two in this case
best picture
and best secondary actor
Javier Bardem

2 great personal surprises
were
Tilda Swinton
for best supporting actress
i know her very well since she's the leading actress
of one bizarre film i love
Orlando

i am really curious about
La Vie en Rose
of the life of Edith Piaf
specially since this lovely french actress
Marion Cotillard
won the Oscar for best leading actress



a dusty evening
cleaning finally a little my house
while watching the Oscars on the TV
not bad ending for a rainy Sunday

now i have yet another 10 or 15 films
to watch
ah sigh! there's more movies than time...