bere-nism of the day

think. think. think.
think. think. think.



well? nope!
nein, nein!!
better... d·e·t·a·c·h...
d · e · t · a · c · h !!
[like in sure NOOO obsessing over font sizes or word spacing nor font colors at 11 Uhr 43 Minuten, but hey! what are you gonna do?]



ahhh, better now? huhh?
if only one always could...

The Buddha made it clear that the detachment of a noble disciple (ariyasaavaka) — the detachment connected with the path — was not essentially a physical act of withdrawal, let alone austerity. Kaaya-viveka was valuable only if seen as a means to the inner purging and mental transformation connected with the destruction of craving. This is illustrated in the Udumbarika Siihanaada Sutta in which the Buddha claims that the asceticism of a recluse who clings to solitude could lead to pride, carelessness, attention-seeking, and hypocrisy, if not linked to the cultivation of moral virtues and the effort to gain insight through meditation.

or in my own very rough words
"don't crave too too much...
let it go, play it low,
and keep it cool! (wink, wink)"
-myself quoted here
now is the Buddhi-nice thought of the day

39

ich habe heute Geburtstag
today is my birthday
hoy es mi cumpleaños



and i know strange vibes been around
my life for the past days
but yet i wake up today
and i am thankful for being alive!
for having lived 39 years already
even if it doesn't really feel like 39...

i am thankful for having friends and family
for being alive
for having a very little house
a very little car and a job
also i have a very little but lovely red pet
all in my life is barely there and nothing is too big
not so flashing
all is modest but i am OK with what i have

and i am sure the ones that remember me
wish me well,
i might be remembered even
in other continents! eh! ahh!

so even with a broken camera
i do have a lot to be thankful for...

and yes! i make a lot of mistakes
but life is to live and to learn
so i hope i am growing personally every day
and ... yeah strange to be 39
but ready to keep on living
and bring on the next 39!

i hope you leave your little message here
to celebrate with me being around for 39 years
if you'd like to share this day with me!
even if just online

and i am not an expert on astrology
but the characteristics of my sign
Aries, sound a lot like me...
specially the stubborn part

and here how i looked age 38
just a couple of days ago
with my still OK alpha
ah sighs...



and here how my broken alpha
portraits 'the time'...

alpha

oh very sad situation
this Sunday morning
my alpha's lens is not working
stuck...
sad, & here one of the last photos
i took with my alpha just yesterday
of a dying flower... not a sign
one can just hope...

my favorite drug

ah!
can smile now
taking doses
of my selected drug
música...

listening to 3 of my favorite
online radio stations

KCRW.com
national public radio
from Santa Monica College

Brainwashed Radio
a non-profit online broadcaster
of excellent music hosted
on Brainwashed.com
producers of rather
obscure music
such another of my favorite bands
godspeed you! black emperor

Otto's Baroque Musick
ah! Otto's online selection
of early baroque music
is great for changing mood
from too modern
to mild-lunatic from the 1600's

no wonder tonight
is my turn to smile!
tonight sounds eclectic indeed
been from
Air
to
Loscil



all the way to
Bach's Brandenburg Concertos


so if you want to smile also
maybe you should check them out too'
they are free and international,
like the world-wide web...

and by the way, if you want to know how all this got started
in mean, 'the internet'
dont' forget to read:
Where Wizards Stay Up Late,
'the origins of the Internet'
full of interesting facts that helped formed
this web, that you & me now so placidly 'surf'

der Wortschatz

so another day
still my philosophies/ideas about life
and the reasons for existence
lingering on the air of a Californian spring

but at least today i have learn a couple more
of german words, courtesy of
Kapitel 10 Wortschatz Quiz morgen Nachmittag

more than mnemonic techniques
what i do to memorize the new words is
to write down a couple of times the words
on a little notebook that resembles
the work of a lunatic, am sure...
if found out of context

and funny enough one of the phrases to learn is
So ein Mist!
so the expression reminded me of this little book
On Bullshit, by Harry G. Frankfurt



and more repetition of words
good way to scare away the existential neurosis
writing words in German a diestra y siniestra...
now excuse my spanglish
but to also to fill out the space on this picture
i remember tonight another also small (slim over all)
book but with a great content
The Book of Tea, by Kakuzo Okakura
as i mentioned in one of my very first posts
a must read, regardless of being a tea drinker or not



and to finish this day
not sure why
sure out of moodiness i came out with these
set of self-fractioned-portraits
unfresh from tonight
tired dark circles under eyes
and to wake up tomorrow at 6.30 am
sechs Uhr dreißig morgen





at least i already have the pijama on this one



good night!
zzz... und zzz, and zzzz
y... a-ha! todavía no me he dormido
pero ahí voy!

strange day/keine Deutschstunde

i went to work early today.
'cause i had class later.
but i got up too too early.
so i got too sleepy.
and that allergy pill.

and on the way to work.
i took this picture.
properties file:
Today, April 08, 2008, 8:02:26 AM



so. after all.
i didn't make it to class.
i feel guilty.
i know i shouldn't.
but i feel the guilt.
that one of the lazy student.
faul, langweilig Studentin.
but i came early(ish) home.
and been doing nothing interesting
since then.

this morning's menacing sky.
should've been a warning.
a cold day it was.
still is.
12° below the average
temperature for this time
of the year.
that might explain.
why.
what?

junk

just as there is junk food
there is plenty of junk literature

when i feel a little too susceptible
and don't want to really question
my intellect nor my soul too much
i stick to junk...
both, food and literature

being afraid that a too-good book
might caught my interest too deeply
or could drive my soul to ponder
over the subtilities that form
the filigree of one's soul and core...
good books get to the core
cheaper novellas, don't.
or a too great meal could awake
senses are better to keep dormant

good things awaken you
and sometimes to survive
one has to be a little dull
somehow aloof...

so this past Sunday
like under a spell
i read over 200 pages
of Mrs. Diane Mott Davidson
first "culinary mystery"
Catering to Nobody
that actually is kind of a 'cute'
mystery, a divorced woman
whose supports her 11 year old
with catering businesses and gets involved
into a murder...

so while i chowed down some really fatty fries
i read recipes mixed with murder



junk, sometimes so good for the soul
even if not for the heart, and certainly
nor for the intellect...

oh! and i have junk socks too!
my mother gave me these
kitty-socks
they are sort of silly and
not very adult...
but they come in very handy
when i run out of clean laundry



'cause sometimes you have to rehearse
your disconnection notice
[this is an amazing live version!]
and then stop playing the diva games
and wear anything...
but the mild lovely noise cuddles me
yes this mild noise
does beautifully corrupts my soul
but no danger on it at all ...
this my band of always



and there is a SYR

lali puna

Es war Sonntag
it was Sunday
era Domingo



and
[Where do you want to go?]
[Where do you want to go now?]
[Where do you want to go today?]

Lali Puna
one of my preferred bands
i haven't listened to them in a while
but tonight... this song



Micronomic
It’s so hot in here
It’s burning outside
And all your teenage idols
have left the building
Haven’t you seen the signs of the time?
Where do you want to go?
Where do you want to go now?
Are you the last to know
they’ve changed your future
Where do you want to go?
Where do you want to go now?
Where do you want to go today?
It’s so hot in here
It’s burning outside
Everybody’s leaving
Say they will make it on the other side
Haven’t you seen the signs of the time?
Where do you want to go?

the weekend so far

Friday night - 18:00 Uhr
and the weekend started with
ein kaltes Bier
a cold beer
una cerveza fría
Full Sail Amber



and by
Samstag Nachmittag
Saturday noon
Sábado al mediodía
looked like this

Tomaten, kleine Zwiebeln und Avocado
tomatoes, green onions, and avocado
tomate, cebollines, y aguacate



and a little later
Tomaten, kleine Zwiebeln und Knoblauch
tomatoes, green onions, and garlic
tomate, cebollines, y ajo



plantita intermezzo



and finished Saturday with
anderem kalten Bier
another cold beer
otra cerveza fría



one of my favorites
Red Stripe
a Jamaican lager

blue déjà vu

déjà vu time!
i used to live in this house
this is the back door
the file's properties read
Monday, April 25, 2005, 6:34:00 AM

so i created this image
3 years ago, this blog not existed yet
so many things were so different!

now my atmosphere is not so teal

that's quiet a while
yes 3 years ago

and then that was home
and this song from 2004!



and now this is it
not so blue
but not so dark on the edges either

teal and surrounded by a black circle
seems that, i saw the world
in 2005
now i feel like a newborn
with an old soul