insomnia

as the dusk
washes away with its darkness
the colors of these burning days
a creature of non-sleep
crawls slowly on my head, on my soul
and places itself
in the back of my neck

the creature is resilient
now it’s been here for 2 nights
with its 2 respective days

it talks to me in loud voices
in my deaf right ear
where the only thing that enters
is the sound of his infernal count
uno, dos, tres

the loud add-up is the total hours
of this now seemly
eternal night vigil…

the creature
i have figured
is envious of the little joy
existing in my spirit
since the days of summer glory
come closer as steps on my pathway

the creature wants to eat my desires
my wishes
and leaves me every morning
with an empty hollow feeling
lifeless & while
looking at my own reflection
i sadly discover a colorless pale facade
my own tired sleepless self

07.07.07

and to celebrate the mystic 07.07.07 date
7 'new' wonders of the world
are to be announced today
selected by voters online
and not sure how one should feel about that

the original 7 wonders
still remain, but which ones go first?
since
there are ancient wonders
then natural wonders
and even modern world wonders!
and yet a new list to be announced?

so many wonders! make one wonder
what is truly wonderful?

anyway, if there's a stroke of luck flying around this date
i hope you catch a bit of the good light for your soul
for your life
and have a wonderful 07.07.07

3:30 am: time for onions & honey?

damn again!
3.30 am and i can't sleep
this cough!
i have slept probably just 1 hr since 11pm
the ear infection is getting better
but now this cough attacks won't let me sleep
ah! so tired of being sick

i found a home-made recipe for cough syrup
honey, thyme, and onions
heated on mild warmth
and to get to the natural remedies since i already used
my inhaler enough times
i cannot exceed 2 puffs every 4 hrs
since it might cause rapid heart beat
i am also an asthmatic person
so the flow of oxygen to my lungs is not quite right

so 3.50 am by now but...
it is definitively much better to seat here & write
than to turn & twist on my bed while coughing
my lungs out

usually cough is the last step of a harsh cold
so hopefully this will be the end of this sickness
tomorrow, well, in a couple of hours
i have another doctor's appointment
to check my ear, and well, now this damn cough

so here i seat
chewing raw onions with honey
and thyme
&
while i type
and i dream of a good night sleep
maybe another night, as it seems

the onion picture is from a while ago
i was amazed that from an already-cut onion
that i have stored for a while
a new little onion was being born!
such is the power of life




and also a picture of the "remedy"
the herbs are thyme
surprisingly, it doesn't taste bad
or maybe i am just that desperate
for a cure now...



oh sweet sleep won't come tonight
or it comes
but then another cough attack scares it away again

the 2005 movies

i got my bulky old digital camera in 2004
then i realized it had a movie mode
these are some of my very 1st movies i found tonight
from march 2005
1. the wave-length one from ocean beach, at the beginning is boring but if you watch it all, you have seen the length of time that takes a wave to splash close to my feet in Ocean Beach




2. more ocean beach, the dizzy way



3. this funny super-silly one, of how to make natural fat free plain peach yogurt, ha! i completely forgot about this one, the music is great! is my Bright and Bouncy Hi-Fi Dance Music vinyl record



i am not very creative lately
but i had plenty of time on my hands a while ago
as it seems

abelardo morell photography

one of my preferred photographers
abelardo morell, american born in Cuba
his work has inspired me many years ago
his work is remarkable!
not to miss the link above
all his work is rather interesting

this photo, in a little version
wooden frame used to be by my bed
now is by the bathroom's door
it looks so familiar to me now!
i see it many times per day...



a strange weekend, moody & hot
throat sickness and black moods around
so tired and hard to focus while feeling sick
there are fire alarms all around southern california
san diego is under a heat wave that increases the chance of wild fires
not nice!

yet... a little light of a smile tonight
i check my calendar, and...
just another 14 days
time where have you gone?
where do you always hide?
that we count you and never come out equal

anyone can play guitar... (?)

i wonder if that's true
i tried once, an electric guitar
as this old image shows
enough i played for my friend to take the picture

& then radiohead says
anyone can play guitar



guess not anyone after all
wonderful video from a mexico concert
have seen them many times
want to see them again, at least once

green & idleness

today was a very slow day
i am very tired after a long week
and getting ready for an even busier one



today just green stripes
here in the little movie
the big palm tree outside
and 100 pages of
three bags full
that turns to be sheepier
and more intriguing as i
turn to a new page, every time

the longest day of the year

and so it was..
june 21st, the summer solstice
and…
the longest day of the year
the earliest sunrise
at the north pole: 24hrs of sun!
at the south pole: a timeless night
for 24 hours was black

and in the middle of the land, 12 hrs
equal time
of day and of night
like a chocolate & cheese pie

the summer is officially here!

and to honor not the summer season
but this specific summer of mine
vivaldi's summer – but the 3rd movement
the presto! the stimulating! the exhilarating one!
although in this movement antonio
makes allusion to a storm
the power of this season
is what i try to call upon
as
my summer foretells
will be a wave of the sea
that leaves and comes back
bringing a refreshing splash of water
hidden in somebody's expected smile

this lovely summer anticipation!
that feeds me now & then with secret little smiles
and to perform the selected piece
who better than glitzy nigel kennedy?
another of his controversial performances
(and check out the English Chamber Orchestra wearing allusive sunglasses)



ah! not the summer but this summer…
my days are clear, while you dream at night
in the other side of the world
you wake up and in my head
i kiss your forehead, good-night
this summer won't be just mine...

ps. also happy b-day today to a dear friend!
another superb photographer!

little humans

it seems common among humans
to desire most what we can not have

the things easily given to us,
we don't appreciate that much
until one day... they are gone

we always want more
what is impossible to reach

just regular stupid
human behavior



so i decided to be NO human
NO more!!!

milk & sky

Morning &
I’ll walk out the door of my existence
facing a bright blue sky
&
Spilled like hot milk
On a warm morning stove
minute white clouds hop around

dazzling blue cuts this sorrow
the milk melted, was your eyes